|The calm before the storm. Stoop side chillin' via @in_sincerity instagram|
School's started back up again, and I have a feeling this semester's going to kick my butt. I'm not doing any classes on campus, which means I'm going to have to work extra hard to make sure I watch all the lectures and read everything on time, since I won't have a physical class to keep me on track. To be honest, I'm pretty bummed out about it all. I noticed this time around college doesn't feel like it used to. It's just not the same college experience that I had years ago at SF state...which should have been expected. I'm so focused on working a full time job that my time on campus is really minimal. Unless I have class, I'm not there, but with this semester I won't even be there at all. I guess that's what I signed up for though. Still, all I want is to go to class like a "normal" student and hang out on campus and join stuff! I literally have to divert my eyes during those club fair things, so I don't go off and join something I know I don't have time for. It sucks.
On the other hand, working this job full time has been a dream. Everyone here is so easy going and understanding of my schedule. The work load is manageable and the folks are great. So I really shouldn't have too much to complain about. I guess it's all about balance.
Working full time and studying full time will be hard, but doable. I just need to really focus. For the first time, I feel like my goals are attainable, and a little hard work and extra attention should be nothing in the grand scheme of things. We'll see...